Unity

Isn't it amazing how things start going right!? In my case it hasn't been easy, i have really had to get in to my own head space to sort shit out, but then this is never easy, i suppose some ppl just get there in different ways. I think i needed to get fat again to go through this process, im learning more about myself and becoming stronger each day.

i must say that the biggest help i've had is the support from my darling fiance. we can be SO SO bad for each other.... we have been in the passed, far too blase about most things, but i think a combination of age and working towards common goals has removed our blinkers. He is working through his own stuff too; but now we're supporting each other at all costs and i feel as if i can finally see a light at the end of the tunnel; it's crazy, scary, new and exciting.

We've got 3 days off together this weekend and had planned to go camping with some friends, but in the last week we have really knuckled down and been woring solidly together on stuff and have decided to take time out on our own. It sucks to let people down but the friends we are meant to go camping with are BIG drinkers (like most of our friends)and we dont want to hit it.... we're feeling too good to throw it out the window....hangovers are far too unproductive. It's too early to think we can go tempting oursleves with a life style we have been accustomed to our entire relationship. We have been working on a healthier life for quite some time, but in these types of situations we seem to always let down our guard (party animals within i think) but now we have more important things to work on and some times you just gotta let things be. I feel like we're in the transition period, now that we are on the same wavelength i think our social circle will be taking a turn. We tend to go through stages, partying....behaving....partying....behaving but the gap has widened a lot in the time between the partying and behaving and now we have some really important goals, it's like having these dreams and aspirations are too important to bother with the unproductive stuff.

its funny, becasue we have been on the same wave lenght for ages, but not acting and sticking to our plans, but slowly and surely things are moving forward, even if it has been a long drawn out process, i guess its the journey that is the most important thing. im sure one day i'll sit back and laugh at how long it took us to get our shit together! we've been together for nearly 10 years which has been a roller coaster, we're best mates and maybe that's been part of our problem... too cruisy... i am liking getting my butt kicked and am loving giving it back! :)