A reflection

i'm sitting back tonight thinking about the road travelled and all that lays ahead. i supposed the biggest thing that i think about is my own road to my self discovery. The day i truly decided that i wanted to make health and fitness a part of my life i was actually in search of myself. I had no idea who i was or what i was about. It didn't occur to me until tonight when i was discussing the fundamentlas of weight loss with my little bro who was telling me he's just lost 10kgs... he has no idea what a carb is... what the Gi is , how to read a food label...etc etc etc... neither did i when i started... and it's not something im obessive about it was just a part of the learning process. Thinking about the time i spent over obsessing about what food i ate, what work out i missed etc etc etc.... has made me relaise just how far i've come... at the begining it was all about being fit and healthy for life, then somewhere in between it became an obsession... then thanks to the lovely ms rae i got helped along a new path which has just escalated me further.

BALANCE... really at the end of the day that's truly all it's about... weight loss and maintenance is just so incredibly simple... put in less than what you take out... eat wholesome foods and be kind to yourself... your body is capable of mind blowing things but you have to nourish it with the things it needs for it to perform it's best; and of course then there's your mind... and that's where the real peace comes from. Knowing that you can love and accept yourself warts and all. Sometimes the things you try and fight are things youmust have because u need to learn from them... and like everything else in life, once they've served their purpose and when you're ready they'll just go...i can't imagine ever going back to where i've come from, but i also can not imagine ever not having been there; becasue all thAt stuff was so crucial to the wiser person i am today. A person that knows themselves and their body and truly loves themselves despite their own demons... yes i have demons still which i fight everyday... but there's less now than a year ago, and even less than a month ago... and as the wise ms rae once said to me... it's taken your whole life ot become the person you are and things will not change over night... but sure as the sun will rise the more demons you face and the more battles you win the stronger you will become and you know what you may have to face new demons but knowing you've already over come so many just reinforces your belief that you can keep winning..because truly at the end of the day it really doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.. its all about what you think and how you feel about yourself... and when you can feel good about that then you know things will never be the same again.

xxx