Stale mate

well, this week has been a funny week.

still making an effort in all areas, and have improved dramatically, but there's room for improvement. i am still happy where things are at, and my attitude and the way im dealing with things but i could be making more progress.... i am only hoping that this is a necessary step to permanent change. Although im not in the comp i find myself still removing fat from stuff, watching portion sizes and being really concious of what i eat, have had the odd social drink, but in saying that its all been controlled... i've stopped and made better decisions and haven't slipped in to old habits.... and even though the progress is slower, i am still making slow consistant progress. im definitely going to tighten up the rains though....i almost want to write, to not draw out this process... but it doesnt feel like a 'process' any more; it just feels like 'my life' and how things are. weird to explain; a couple of weeks ago i proclaimed i would go hell for leather to 'get skinny' but after a few weeks of training i decided i really needed to teach myself to cope in situations where i come unstuck and re-train myself and it's working. i am enjoying this journey; its a different road i am taking and i am interested in seeing how things turn out day by day; i just hve to be careful not to kid myself and to be honest with myself.

am off to update my 'moving forward journal' had a lazy day today, had to do a tourism course at TAFE *was fun* so setting goals for tomorrow to kick ass!