i feel like a jerk, hypocryte, spineless jelly fish and like an absolute idiot, because i am exactly where i was 12 months ago - the worse thing is i know better and i know what changes i have to make and i have known all along and that makes it much much worse because i don't follow through and i don't know why! There are thing's i am allowing to happen in my life which infuriate me and i really need to stop, SO WHY DON'T I? only i can figure it out, at the end of the day though, i don't think there is any big solution i am going to stumble across, i just have to take it one day at a time and start making decisions that will empower me... i have the exercise under control... which has been great... now for the cigarettes, relationship & alcohol... and i know without the cigarettes, the rest will fall in to place.... so what am i waiting for? the answer is right there! i guess once i am making good decisions it will be empowering enough to get the momentum building! the one thing i do know, is that i am SO SICK of singing the same old tune, i am so over my own voice and fucking nagging and whinging about shit i have the power to change! only i can do it, and i have so really got to the point where i have had a gutful! hopefully the anger it has casued will be enough to catapult me to the next level!
here goes...
"the only way to easy street is through the sewer" Anthony Robbins
3 comments:
I am with you all the way babe!
thanks
xxxx
Kaddy - if you need zyban to succeed your not a loser, your willing to try anything and that is a hell of a lot better than smoking and feeling like crap
Zyban was the only thing that worked for me and I have not smoked since January 19th 2001 because of it
you can do it!
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